The Secret of Me

One day on Friday morning, I went to my campus. I walked through law faculty. Then I heard boy’s sound call someone “Sister…sister…sister…” I just walk away n keep walk going to my campus. Then the boy yelled “Hello sister with the red clothes”. It was me, with the red clothes, then I turn around and ask him “Did u called me?” He said “Yes, sister, I call you” He ran on me and asked me where the culture faculty was. And I told him where the culture faculty was. Then he said that he wanted go to my faculty. Then in my mind I asked my self “Ow…this boy make me scare, what did he want, why did he want to go to my faculty?” He saw my worried face and then he explains all to me. He start to explain “Sister, please forgive me for disturbing you. Actually I need help. I sell donuts for helping my mother to pay my younger sister’s hospital payment. She is sick during last Christmas until now. And we don’t have enough money for pay it.” My heart so touch with his story. Poor him, a boy must help his mother for pay the hospital’s bill. Ya Allah… please give him Your blessing, I pray on my heart. Then I told him that I can send him to my faculty canteen. He smiled. I asked his name, he answered me that his name is Petra

and I told him my name. I saw his uniform. He wore junior high school’s uniform. I asked him “where did you school?” He answered me that he was school at particularly school for defect people. Ya Allah, this boy is so strong, he almost make my tears fell. I decided to buy his donut and send him to my canteen faculty. After sending him, I went to security post for put the key of my research laboratory then gave the donut to office boy in security post. Then I went to my laboratory and meet my friend and asked him that he saw the boy who sold donuts or no. My friend said that he saw the donuts boy. I told him that I was so hesitant with the boy’s story about helping his mother. My friend just said that just let my hesitant feeling go. Then I left my hesitant feeling on my mind. A few minute next I try to missed call my abroad friend then I saw that I lost my pulse. Damn!!!! I was so angry. Then I tried to make my self calm.

In there I realize that I have asked the boy’s honestly. I was hesitant with him. Then my mind said that if I want to give charity, I don’t have to ask it. Ya Allah, please forgive me. Allah admonished me with Allah’s way. Forgive me my Allah and thanks for the admonishment. I’m thankful to have You Allah…